I’ve gained quite a bit of weight in the last couple of weeks (fat not muscle, about 6lbs) but actually I’ve been feeling a little better about the way I look (obviously not all the time)
Last week I ate that burger and THE WHOLE plate of chips for lunch, I also ate other food during that day and it WAS NOT a binge and it was my choice.
I never thought I’d be in that position again and I think that’s sad, to just ‘eat normally’ without feeling guilty or like I needed to fix it. I hadn’t realised how suffocating my eating habits and thoughts had become but let me tell you now, that burger was AMAZING, any slight anxiety was worth it and it was very freeing.
I do hate that I’ve gained weight and I don’t always love how I look but maybe I will concentrate on making sure my skin is moisturised and that I cleanse my face more often and brush my hair and SMILE MORE if I want to look ‘better’ because being skinny isn’t the same as being pretty and if my REAL concern is being pretty then that is definitely a more productive move!
Just had to share the self love and body positivity realisation :) xx